I don’t think it’ll ever stop pissing me off when people with thyroid cancer insist that it’s not a better cancer than most. Because the likelihood is, if you’re a young-ish woman with thyca, you have a relatively manageable kind. Obviously exceptions exist, but for the most part, thyroid cancer…
The problem is that people are dismissive.
Yes, I am most likely not going to die. But that doesn’t mean my life hasn’t been disrupted, or that I’m not frustrated or hurt. I can’t hold my head level and breath at the same time. My short term memory is shit. I have a Giant scar on my neck that is all people will look at now. I can’t can go a day at work with out having someone demand to know why it’s there. I’m always tired but can’t sleep.
These things suck. Having cancer sucks, having to spend every other day at the doctors sucks.
And yes, other people have it worse than me. There is always going to someone who has it worse than me. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t have problems. And it doesn’t make my thoughts and feelings on them any less valid. When I got my diagnosis my doctor told me it wasn’t a big deal. Well it was to me.
My cancer is treatable, so far. It probably wont kill me. Probably (it spread, so who knows?). But I still have cancer. People tell me I’m lucky to have thyroid cancer. WTF? No, being lucky would’ve been not having cancer at all. That’s the problem. We know that it’ll probably work out okay. But if I’m having a particularly bad day, and I make the mistake of mentioning it, the last thing I want is for some one who has no idea what they’re talking about to tell me that at least I have a ‘good cancer’.
I think what bothers me is being told my cancer is good. It’s not. Cancer is never good. I don’t have stage 4 Breast cancer, so I can’t imagine what it’s like, I don’t have that frame of reference. I only have my own experiences to make judgement on. But this is the worst thing that’s happened to me so far. And I’m allowed to feel upset about it without being dismissed.